Quieter outside than inside

Quieter outside than inside

What could this picture possibly have to do with meditation, mediocre or otherwise?
Well, this is the view I have from my little nest, the comfy chair big enough that I can sink in to it with my legs folded up and meditation every morning, usually as the sun is just coming up.
And it’s the view I usually don’t see, because I meditate with my eyes closed, so I can concentrate better.  At least that’s the theory.
Lately, though, I’m experimenting with eyes wide open.  Closed, I don’t have the visual input to deal with and to distract, but it leaves my thoughts free to wander. Open, I’m picking a point is space to pull my focus back – the question is, with a view like this, which point?
And by the way, have you ever notice that if you stare at one thing for a long time, the edges just kind of dissolve, like maybe you really can see the atoms move around. Or do I need my eyes checked?
Parsing Paintings

Parsing Paintings

I’m continuing to capitalize on the fragile and fleeting momentum I have to paint, and pairing it with my word of the year:  resolution.

That means rescuing some works in progress that have been languishing in the studio closet.  These four pieces were originally one big unfinished 20” x 30” sheet, and after some revisions and re-imagining, I now have two 9” x 12” and two 5” x 7” pieces I’m at peace with.

The reel over on Instagram shows the original and the evolution.

The Rewards of Persistence

The Rewards of Persistence

Planning continues for our three month year end adventure.  For years I’ve collected hotel reward points from business travels, and we pretty much run our life on American Express, so our plan to avoid sticker shock is to put them to good use.  Like anything that saves you money, there is often a trade-off that involves more time, and I accept that.  I also accept that I have a tendency to be an over-researcher and would often do well to stop thinking and pull the trigger.

Just when I’m building momentum, though, I have an experience that rewards my paranoia.  The latest example involved booking a flight from Madrid, Spain to Nice, France (for sure a first world problem, but stick with me, because the same thing could happen in less exotic places).

First, those rock bottom airfares you hear about are largely an illusion if you want to carry more than a toothbrush and have the option to cancel.

Option One was to book the flight on the American Express travel web site and pay with points, possible because Iberia airlines is a partner.  That would take about 37,000 points for a refundable fare.  Don’t ask me why, but I felt compelled to check directly with Iberia, and guess what – Option Two, same flight, same everything, 18,000 points!  Yes, it involved joining another loyalty program, another password, and a couple of phone calls because it seemed too good to be true.

Seriously, do you have any idea what I can do with an extra 18,000 points?

The #100dayproject did its job

The #100dayproject did its job

Instagram hooked me again back in February, and I’ve just completed another 100 day project challenge.
Did I cheat?  Kind of.  My goal was a 5″x5″ piece every day, taking no more than 25 minutes.
I didn’t create every day, but I caught up, so I made 100 pieces in 100 days
I didn’t work more than 25 minutes, but I often took less
I used watercolor, I sketched in pencil and pen, I used collage, I used gouache, I used acrylic
These two pieces aren’t part of the work I created but they are the reason I decided to do the project.  Consistent practice helps me loosen up.  It helps me remember how I did things in pieces I like, how to avoid effects I don’t like, and how to fix things that go wrong.
So, when I decided that I wanted something to change out the two hallway picture frame images before the weekend, these two pieces came quickly.  They aren’t perfect.  They could be worked on some more, for sure.  But that’s always true.  The 100 day project reminded me that it’s just paper and paint, and I can let it go, because there will be another chance to create tomorrow.
Feeding Your Demons

Feeding Your Demons

My personal meditation practice took an interesting turn when I came across this book recently.  It talks about a modern interpretation of an ancient Tibetan practice called Chöd.
I’m pretty sure we have all had thoughts, feelings, or even physical pain that we just want to get rid of, and there are practices that focus on “clearing” them out – removing them.  There are examples I can think of in Christian prayer as well as many forms of healing work.
Chöd takes a different approach.  Instead of asking or seeking to be rid of these things, we should consider why they are there, what they want, and then give it to them.  The idea is then that, once satiated, they will abate and perhaps even transform into an energy that can be helpful and healing.
It’s a very specific and detailed practice, and I can’t claim that I’ve applied much rigor to my experiments, but I have found it helpful and effective.  Having said that, it’s a little bit of a trust fall to honor or almost befriend the thing that is causing you pain.  I was intrigued, though, by the serendipity of the fact that, having never heard anyone mention it before, I almost immediately learned that someone I know well is so interested in it that she is going to Tsultrim Allione’s center in Colorado for a Chöd retreat.
It reminds me of the Internal Family Systems approach, and similar approaches, to talk therapy.  My very, very simplistic interpretation being that the more you try to deny or get rid of something that is trying to get your attention, the more it will fight to survive.